shouldn't we count our blessings?

12.33pm


aaah..its Monday again. somehow I managed to live thru another week. a lot of people didn't. everyday I get up, the moment I open my eyes, I think - oh im still alive, not dead yet. so whats installed for me today? - and my day begins. what about you? whats the first thing you think of when you open your eyes?

you know, I try to tell myself well remind myself of my blessings. sometimes we all tend to forget what we already have but instead wanting more and more. as humans, I guess not all of us are satisfied with what we've got/given. don't you agree?

sometimes its not whether its wrong or right, in wanting more. I guess there's a grey line.  it all depends on each situation and how you tackle it. if its for a bad purpose, then your conscience should be pricking you constantly by now. and if its for a good cause, then carry on and aim high.

the other day I was talking to my mom and we were talking about our family and friends taking trips abroad, travelling and seeing the world. oh how nice! I wished I could go too, somewhere. I admit I envied these people although I don't constantly think about it but if the word "travel" "holiday" "vacation" should pop up, there I go again, feeling like the world is on my shoulders. and then I heave a big huge SIGH. cant go. that's the answer, cant bloody go.

its not that we don't have the money to travel but well we just purchased our new home and we aint millionaires therefore we have to  pay the  monthly instalments which mind you, is a bit hefty if you asked me. but what to do. the husband says - "we gotta prioritize! not always thinking of holidaying!! go earn some money first, then we can go..well you can go!"  AISHH!!

and that's when my mom tells me that I should be so lucky. a lot of people are homeless, jobless,  cant even afford to go anywhere, losing their loved ones etc. I know what mom says is true but sometimes  I just don't know. there's a part of me is that is still that little child who is stubborn and want her way. but alas, I have to think rationally about the whole situation and calm down and push the thought away from my mind. ah reality bites.

and you know what( ok, this has nothing to do with counting my blessings, im straying a bit here hahaha), only recently I had a dream that I was experiencing my first snow fall and so happened my husband was in my dream too and I was like nudging him(in the dream of course!) and going "oi oi...its snow! its bloody snowing!" and I was so happy(in my dream ya!). can you imagine that? in my freaking dream I can even dream of snow! yes, I have experienced winter before during my travels but never saw or felt snow!

the other day, my grandmother who is wheelchair bound, told me woefully  how she wished she could walk. but theres not much strength left in both her legs now. I did mention I think in my previous blog that my paternal grandmother is 95! that's why I think I should count my blessings because one day I may not be able to walk or move around as freely as I can.

a very good friend of mine lost his sight to severe diabetes. he has also lost part of his hearing too. back in the day, we would hang out together, a small group of us, going dancing, out for a good meal or just out for drinks. today, he sits at home whilst his wife has to be the breadwinner and support the family. what do you think he wishes for?

theres a whole lot of situations when we all should count our blessings and not take things or people for granted. we should always cherish what we have around us, the people and the things, our pets etc. one moment they are there, next POOF gone.

another example is our body. most of us tend to take our bodies for granted. oh whats there to worry about, we can see, eat, smell, walk, run etc but have we ever stopped and wondered what if one day we lost those things? our senses? mobility? even our minds? what then? lets say for example, you accidentally cut your last finger or thumb whilst cutting a fruit or veggie ok, then when its like plastered up and all and you continue to go about with your daily routine and you realize something, that hey, you do need to use your pinky/thumb. and then it hits you, you've taken even your fingers for granted. isn't it true? or another example is something happens to some part of your body and only then would you realize how important that that part is to you.

that's why I don't understand why on earth people want to have plastic surgery or put tattoos or piercings on their bodies. there are many things in this world I do wonder  about and question. everybody has their own reasons why they wanna do such things. to me its just destroying our own bodies, mutilating it. not respecting it at all. isn't there a saying - your body is your temple - ?

money too can be taken for granted. you think it will always be there. but my friends, think again. even a millionaire or billionaire can go bankrupt!

well go think about it. look at your life and TRY not to grumble or bitch about it so much. lets all try to look at those less fortunate or not as lucky as we are.

ok ttfn

1.13pm

happy mothers day

5.01pm

so its mother's day today and I would like to take this opportunity to wish all mothers out there who have dedicated their lives and sacrificed a lot in bringing up their kids without much fuss. kudos to you and you ought to pat yourselves on your back.

im not a mother per se but as you all know by now, I have my lil furkid so therefore I would like to think of me as the mother to my dog. hahahaha...go figure.

I would like to also take this opportunity to thank my own mom for being the "bestest" mom ever. I will not  trade her for anything. I guess no one really would in their right frame of mind. well my mom is my rock. she has never failed me. she is always there to encourage me, to push me to be a better person, dispensing advise (be it necessary or unnecessary hahaha)  etc. and yet she never really grumbles or bitch about her own life. she's always giving and never asking anything back in return. sadly not all mothers are like that. is yours like mine too?

you know, when I was growing up, I used to think that my mom was such a strict person compared to my dad. mom was the drill sergeant whereas dad was mr cool. its like good cop bad cop. when I chat with my mom and talk about the good ol days, she would always nag at me and my brother(but more so, me) to go and study (especially during exam period) and I really disliked studying and I would quietly sneak out of my room(and when I say sneak out meaning my head would peek out from behind a wall that separates the hall to my room) and try to watch tv (whatever my folks are watching) and if I remember correctly, sometimes I would get caught by my mom (who else) and I would get an earful from her. dad however, is the exact opposite of mom, and he would tell my mom to chill and let "the kids" watch some tv. told ya he was mr cool. hahaha..but now on hindsight now I know why my mom wanted us to study hard as it was for our own sakes and also for the sake of our own future.

so anyways, as you can probably tell by now, I come from a close knitted family, as there's only 4 of us - my mom, dad, brother and myself. and as I got older and ahem! more wiser, I sometimes think about death. I have lost a few loved ones whilst growing up but in the past decade or so, I have lost my sister in law, my very good friend and my grandmother. I loved them all very much and seeing them lying there in their coffins really hit me pretty hard. I know that I wont be seeing them  or talking to them ever again(but perhaps after I die or who knows in my next life, I don't know). its really so sad. and even till today, these images still haunt me and I don't know if I ever will get over losing them. I am fully aware however, that we all have to go sooner or later but wouldn't it just be nice that if that wasn't the case at all? that we could all live for a very long time!

so back to my mom. this woman has dedicated her life to the family. through the ups and downs in our lives whist growing up and till today, she is still pushing on. I know for a fact that she is one amazing woman. and you know what, im so glad that GOD has chosen her to be my mommy. even as a young adult back then, I never really gave much thought about my mom although yes I know how hard she has worked and saved just to provide for us all and never giving up on us and kept staying positive. but then everything suddenly changed when I had to move away.

I had to teach my mother how to use the msn chat (later skpye) so that we could keep in touch.  and from that day onwards we've been staying in touch with each other via Skype, every few days, to catch up on gossip, what we've both done etc. my mom bless her, has given much of her life to her work and to taking care of the family. she has also taken care of my sis in law as well as her own mother, who passed away late last year. my grandmother too was such a sweetheart. such a cheerful and happy go lucky woman. she's never worked in her life(as my grandfather was the breadwinner) and she was a homemaker taking care of 5 kids! just like my mom, she was always giving and never asking back in return. as long we are all happy.

growing up we were never rich. we were just an average income family. like most families out there, trying to make both ends meet. it was tough and rough those days but now its  over thank god. I remember that what I wanted I usually got. of course I don't ask for elaborate or expensive stuff.

mom's cooking too was the best. she learnt from my grandmother. even till today whenever I come back home, my mom would always ask me what I would like to eat and she will cook it for me. sometimes I would tell her that I want her fried chicken(secret receipe of course!) or kai lan with Chinese wine (yummy! one of my fav dishes) etc. that's how "spoilt" I am. well mom doesn't only "spoil" me but my brother too. we both get what we want especially when it comes to food.

now since im based in Singapore, thankfully my brother is around to pop by  to check up on my parents and spend time with them when he's free. I worry sometimes for my folks too. oh ya talking about death (some paragraphs earlier), im very scared of losing my parents, especially my mom because im very close to her. what would I do? I know life goes on even after they've gone. can I cope? would I break down? would I go mental? I really don't know and I try to shrug it off and brush it aside. but I still cant help thinking about it, you know. mom has lost her mom and I know it must have been very painful for her because like my situation, she was also close to her mom too. sigh

anyways, one day I will blog about my grandmother. honestly she is such a darling. but that's for another day ok. today's blog is to thank my mom from the bottom of my heart and words just express the gratitude that I feel towards her for all that she's done from the day I was born. I really am so thankful and that she is GOD sent. I must be so lucky.

so all of you who are reading this blog, I hope your mothers are just as good as mine and really you ought to treasure them when they are still alive and kicking not after they have kicked the bucket. and this not only goes to mothers but fathers, brothers, sisters, wives, husbands etc. life is so fragile and at anytime death will come knocking on your door and when time is up its up. no second guessing about it. so do cherish your loved ones when they are alive!!

thanks for reading and once again, happy mothers day to all!! god bless!!


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5.43pm

responsibility to your fellow countrymen

4.37pm


well very recently my home country held their elections and as usual(not surprising) the current ruling party won. in any case, it was an all out war between the opposition and the ruling party. nothing new there either. but oh, the drama!

anyways, there was a lot of of campaigning or as the locals call it "ceramahs" (talks) given in hopes to gain votes from the general public, with lots of hoo-haa from both sides. whether fact or fiction,(i don't know coz im not into politics and please for goodness sake do not quote me on any of what's being mentioned here because its from my point of view) i don't really care but what makes my temper boil is the words that's spewing out of their mouths. all nonsense and sometimes the things they say, you don't know whether to laugh, cry, be embarrassed( that such things can even be uttered) or just go HUH??? WTF??

they don't play a fair game, not as "transparent" as we think they are. i guess everyone are for themselves. they have to look after their "rice bowl". when push comes to shove, do you think these people are thinking for others or for themselves only? go figure. its so easy to say that "they" are actually for the people/country but come on really, who are you trying to kid here? do you expect me to buy into that bullshit?

its really sad to see that after all the bullshitting and pulling the wool over the publics eye, "they" can turn around and say something nasty. i really do think that is downright rude and well, if you call yourself a "matured adult" with god given brains to think, i seriously think then, you have to go check yourself in to the mental institution and get your head sorted out.

do you realize that words spoken cannot be retracted or erased. its not like a laptop or computer where you can delete and erase what you are typing. its not that simple. yes, you can ask for forgiveness but deep down, do you really think you are forgiven entirely? no way!! the public don't forget so easily especially when nasty and mean things are being said about them when its not 100% true. i think there are some shit stirrers out there that's creating all this nonsense. getting the country riled up, probably over nothing. but sometimes its hard to say. whether whats being said is true or false and whether you chose to believe or not. entirely up to each individual to decide for themselves.

i am saddened to think that this is currently happening in a developing country. one hand, they want to move forward but on the other hand, they are moving 3 steps backwards. to me, when you say one country one nation, it means everyone is joined/united as one. don't you agree? but I don't think that that is the case here.

who died and made them god huh? what makes them so special? how do they even sleep at night when they can be so mean, greedy and spiteful towards others? I thought we all have some kind of guilt conscience inside us, telling us that we have done wrong and then try to make right? well I guess not all of us have that. sigh

you know, i voted during the last election and quite frankly, it wasted my time. my neighbourhood had gotten from bad to worst and when i say that i meant that the crime rate has gone up, the filth around the neighbourhood is really disgusting and the morons that double park along the shop lots and housing area have been causing major traffic jams. once upon a time it was such a peaceful place to live in. now , we even have pay for our security. meaning to say, each household has to fork out say $100 just to hire a security guard to stand by in our housing area 24/7  to look out for crime, suspicious person/s or whatever. yes, it has come to that. we don't even feel safe in our own home!! houses have been just ransacked in broad daylight. can you beat that? so i ask you, what is my government doing about it? mind you, its not only  happening in my area but also in and around the city and other neighborhoods as well.

don't talk about that, talk about kidnapping , car jacking and rape cases in parking lots in big shopping malls! oh my god!! and pray tell, what is the police doing about it? isn't this not serious enough? im not saying that by a miracle they have to clear up all this crap up that's going on but  at least put it under control. to me, i reckon that everything is just being swept under the rug and giving a million and one excuses! once again, trying their luck to pull the wool over our eyes and hoping that the public will eventually forget about all of this and move on.

aah...sorry for all the venting. i just had to let it out. and this is my outlet. as i said before these are  my thoughts and opinion. do not quote me on any of this. in future i do hope you choose wisely for the people you want running your country. don't be afraid to question them. and make sure that what they have promised, will be delivered instead of getting lots of empty promises.

before I end I would like to say this. when you want to do something good, do it willingly and not expect to get anything in return. no one forced or coerced you in the first place. and when you do that something, do it with an open mind and heart,  and you will be rewarded. but in this case, its expected that "they" expect something in return. oh well. c'est la vie



ok until my next blog,

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5.34pm

my neighborhood

10.22am

today im gonna be yakking about my neighbourhood, my neighbors and the surrounding areas. where I live is a pretty decent area, dotted with eateries, a couple of 24 hour supermarkets, some massage parlours, bicycle shops, pet shops etc. it has basically everything that you would need in your daily life. the folks around here are from all walks of life.

now in my condo, on our floor, there's 3 owners(including ourselves) who has furkids. there's a brown male poodle(forgot its name), a male corgie named rocky and of course our lil one, fergie. almost everybody who lives on this floor that happens to walk by, will stop and pet fergie because she's cute and rarely barks. yup, I've trained her not to simply bark because I honestly cant stand the pitch of the bark, it irritates my ears, as im sensitive to different types of sounds. the corgie however, just loves to bark for no reason. ever so often, i'd hear the owner going - "rockyyyyy" or "boyyyyyyy" and then rocky would stop. he doesn't bark continuously, just a couple of times which mind you is pretty loud and sharp! sometimes when he's on his way out for his walks, he would stop by my doorstep(if its open) and see if fergie is around. rocky is a cute corgie I gotta admit.

now my neighbors across from us, there's 2 ladies living there. a mother and daughter. each time when they open their door and I happen to be at my main door too, I can see inside their home, which is pretty cluttered and seems like in disarray. seriously I don't know how they both can live like that. ugh, I personally cant stand messiness or untidiness, but then again, its not my house/home and its none of my business how people chose to live. im just saying.

the other day, my husband thought he saw the mother carrying a pot out of her place and then going to the rubbish chute just next to our unit and throwing god knows what down. and there were tiny puddles of water on the floor trailing back to her unit. ugh. I didn't see that but my husband did and then he reported it to me. I guessed he was pissed and really put off by it and thinking how can people do such things. he said he thinks that the lady threw old soup or bones etc (which would stink up the area) down the chute and this would probably attract ants, roaches, lizards etc would be attracted to all, sigh. why oh why cant people be more civilised?

so I went to check the chute to see what was thrown inside. I couldn't find anything nor any smell at all. only found some bunch of hairs stuck at the side of the chute opening. I took a small cup of water and poured it over the hairs to "unglue" it. ugh. I don't know why I bother but hey, its my home, my new home and I don't want others to "dirty" my surrounding area! people don't realize that its a chain reaction with every action they do. people don't care honestly. oh not my problem, why do you bother..bla bla bla...  hey, its only the right thing to do ok. be civic conscious.

but seriously tho, some people have no social etiquette at all. and a bunch of hypocrites if you asked me. they wont do it in their own homes but in public, free for all. nobody cares, whose gonna complain about me? im sure that's how some people think. like in my own home country, its pretty filthy. rubbish everywhere. people just don't bother. therefore the neighborhood looks like shit. wanna try to beautify the place by sprucing it up with more trees and flowers and nice 5 foot pavement but whats the point when there's litter and rubbish everywhere? and the black crows!! omg!! its like piercing when a whole flock of them are on top of rooftops of the shoplots and trees. bird shit everywhere!! these crows are here for a reason. the open air market. when market time is over, the cleaners don't do a good job, they do a slip shod job and leave. they don't care. and then you drive by and see veggies or stale meat pieces lying on the ground and this attracts birds, rats(we have ginomours ones mind you), crows etc having a feast, daily!

ok sorry I got sidetracked. back to my neighborhood here in Singapore. overall I can say its a pretty nice area. I cant chose my neighbors unfortunately. therefore I have to live with them and put up with their crap, whatever it may be. oh you know what else, there's always a thump thump sound coming from the unit above ours. im guessing that the person walks with a heavy foot, if you know what im saying. if you live in a condo/flat, do you hear those sounds? it can get pretty annoying, don't you agree? and sometimes I can hear doors slamming from up above. footsteps going up and down. wonder what the devil is that person up to. I feel like shouting to them at times to tone it down but well, i'll just have to be a little bit more patient before I do that. hahahaha....i'll let it slide for now, since I just moved in and I don't want to stir any shit for the time being and have enemies.

well that's about it. lastly, I wanna end my blog by saying that there's a couple of parrots or parakeets that somebody has been raring and every morning, you can hear them whistle and they sound like little kids! weird sounds they would make. at first I thought it was really little kids making those sounds but then my husband told me as he was on his way out to the bus stand, he can hear the birds making those sounds. aaah...

I wish you luck with your neighbors. until my next blog...


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2.02pm

taxis

4.42pm


this morning around 7am it started to pour so heavily and I had to ring the taxi company to book a cab for my husband. after being put on hold and listening to an automated voice for about 7 minutes, a guy came on the line. I told him that I wanted to book a cab for 8.15am and he took down my home address etc and told me that they will call me back. so around 8am my husband decided to ring them up again because there weren't any sign/calls from the cab company. he was put on hold and then managed to speak to the customer service which also told him the same thing. to wait for a reply.

10 minutes later, my husband just could not wait any longer(he had a meeting to rush to) and was getting pretty fed up. at least, you know the cab company should ring us back(since they have our details, when we made those earlier calls to them) and inform us that there wasn't any cab available due to the heavy rain or for whatever reason. we did give them ample time to scout around for a cab.

long story short, my husband ended up taking public transport to work and I rung the same taxi company to cancel the booking. somehow I think these taxi companies have a lot to improve on. Singapore is such a small country and its just amazing that there are not enough cabs to go around the island. it seemed as though they have crawled into some cave and hid there, afraid to come out!

you know, when you want a taxi, there wont be any available around but when you don't want, you see a lot on the road. here in Singapore(for those foreigners reading my blog), all the taxis(from different companies) will have the standard sign flashing on top of their car, bit like the police. it will flash the words like busy, on call, (those are in red color) and if its available, they will either put the destination that these cab drivers are heading to, (probably change shift or whatever) or you will see the taxi company's phone number, all in green color. this is to let the people flagging down these taxis( or if you are at a taxi stand), so that you can see what's going on, basically.

for those of you who are reading this and live here, have you ever encountered these problems before or any other problems for that matter?  there are times when we have rung and booked a cab(but yet to get a reply from them on whether they will be sending a cab or not) and we happen to see an available cab and we hop on, we have to call back the cab company to cancel our booking. why cant they just tell us "ok we will call you back in 5 mins, max 10 to inform you if your booking was successful or not" so at least we don't have to sit around and wait for their reply, not knowing if its a yes or no. very annoying if you asked me. some people could be having an emergency or late for the airport or meeting etc but these taxi companies don't care do they?

you know, they really ought to do something about this and improvise. sometimes they can be smart but at times, kinda stupid if you asked me. its like taking 2 steps forward and 1 step back. ssheesh

another annoying thing that i wanna highlight is that OMG, some of the drivers are really bad. when i say bad i mean they dont know how to drive properly. you know how they drive? let me tell you. they would accelerate then release the accelerator, accelerate and release the accelerator on and on like that until you reach your destination...OMFG!! or they would break and accelerate, break and accelerate...many times, my mom in law,  he maid and myself would get blue in the face or feel like throwing up when this happens!! Im ok if they drive slowly but this is too much. and when that happens, I would look out the window and count the "hours" until I reach my destination. hoping that I don't embarrass myself by suddenly throwing up in the cab! oh the fear of it all!!

and all thanks to who? thanks to these lousy cab drivers(which unfortunately are the elderly uncles, more often than not). I know they want to earn a living but seriously, they should stay off the road. and mind you there were many times, I wanted to just tap on the shoulder of these "uncles" to tell them that I will take over the driving because its just that bad. I would beg!! believe you me, but so far touch wood, I've not come to that stage YET, I hope it wont!

aaah, one thing good that I can say about Singapore cabs is that they don't cheat you. it all goes by meter. and you can pay via nets card, ezlink(I think), credit card or cash. so you have options. and you can ask for your receipt if you like.

but unlike in my home country, not all taxis there go by meter. they will give you a price, you take it or leave it although sometimes you can negotiate the fare, depending on the distance. what the hell right!! and I heard that there are lots of cases whereby foreigners and tourists would get conned/cheated by these taxi drivers. really disgusting. I bet you that these drivers have been trained by the ministry of transport. any tom,dick and harry can be drivers. and by the way, you gotta pay by cash only. the taxis are pretty small compared to Singapore taxis which has more legroom and space. im not sure however, if things have changed for the better, although i would like to think so.

you know, once as i was queuing up for a taxi at the airport back in my hometown, there were 4 big and tall caucasion guys in front of me, hopping into one of these small taxis!! omg!! I was giggling to myself from what I saw. the 4 of them could barely breathe in the cab!! and as the cab sped off, I could see that the poor taxi was trying hard to withstand the weight of 4 heavy guys! hahahaha... hey these guys were also carrying their huge knapsacks ok!! so you can just imagine. too funny.

alas i know that in the end we are at the mercy of these cab companies, especially if you don't own a car. but you don't really need a car here(and cost of one is bloody high!) because the public transport system is pretty damn good compared to my country's. i seriously think they ought to learn the good stuff like this for example, from Singapore but i guess they are too proud, arrogant and stubborn to do so.

well nothing i can do about it. im a nobody. even if i voice out, so what? one voice, who cares, right?! ok, that's it then, people! take care and check in with you guys another day! until then,


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5.44pm

finally settling down

2.53pm


finally settling down properly in our new home. getting to know the surrounding area too. there's 10 units to a floor. this condo is a small set up, only ard 40 over units with different sizes.

and on my floor itself, we've got 3 units that have dogs. a very cute male corgie named rocky and then there's a brown poodle(don't know its name yet) and then there's my furkid, fergie. im not quite sure if I have shown you a pix of my lil one but nevertheless, here's some for you to see.

1) that's fergie for you on her 6th birthday last October. my sis in law bought her a lil cake to celebrate the occasion. and boy, she loved it. I had to divvy up the cake into 3-4 days, coz i don't allow her to whack all at one sitting, no way!! gotta pace it out.

2) that's the lil one when she was probably around 1-2 years old.

 

anyways, amist settling in, there's things that I forgot to buy/get. sigh then I have to run out to the shops nearby(thank god) and get it. on top of that, my husband decided to buy a bicycle, a retro one at that. hahaha...ok yes, we are going green if we can. if we can help contribute to save our planet, why not right?

you know, I've not sat on a bicycle in yonks! the last time i rode on one was when i was 17 years old!! holy cow. and i had a bloody nasty fall and after that i told myself - no more bicycles for me, phobia!! but having said that, after i saw the bike i decided why not give it another try. if i fall down, so be it. i don't mind having scrapes and bruises hahaha (call me a weirdo). so i hopped on it and rode around the vicinity of my condo, not daring to ride out on the streets, YET. time will tell if i have the guts to start riding outside the confined area. hahaha wish me luck peeps!

so besides learning how to operate the stupid washing machine(if you do recall, it "killed" my Big Bang tshirt, bah humbug!) now i have to learn how to operate the built in oven. the previous owners didn't leave me any manuals and i had to google and search online for each individual products and their manuals and get my husband to print out for me so i can "study" it. sheesh. but thankfully, i used my god given brains, and somehow managed to bake a simple pound cake and it turned out fine. next on my agenda is to learn how to use the grill. do any of you face this kinda problems at all? or is it only me?

ooh before i end im sorry but i have to say this, for all you Big Bang fans out there, if you like team leader Gdragon @ kwon ji yong, well he's gonna be performing his solo concert here in Singapore end of june(tickets are not out yet as I've been diligently checking sistic website and rung them as well but they don't seem to have any idea about it..huh? what?) as well as countries like Malaysia, Indonesia, Thailand, japan(just finished i think), china etc. just to name a few. i bet you its gonna be rockin!! and then TOP @ choi seung hyun , his movie titled the alumni/commitment(international title apparently) will be coming out later part of the year, so do look out for it. and the rest of BB guys are doing their own individual things. daesung @ d'lite has just had his concert in japan and it was a sold out concert at that! these guys really know what they are doing. its simply fantastic!!

right, that's about it then folks! stay tuned for another episode of bev's blog ok. but until then, just get your Cray On!!


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3.20pm

 

cards to big bang and settling down

4.21pm

aaaahh....aigoo..alas I've moved into my new pad. everythings sorted out. now is just a matter of getting used to the place and surroundings. im still a bit lost and everything is like surreal to me.

past few days since we moved in, I've not been sleeping well. im totally exhausted as well as overwhelmed from all the unpacking and figuring out what goes where etc...just a bleeding headache! omg. im glad its over!

next on my agenda is to get myself a job. anything will do i guess. sigh..looks like there's no break for me. but hold up...did i just hear that my husband said he wanted to go on a short break. hmm...do you think what im thinking?? hahahaha  its a wait and see game. so i'll just have to wait and work will probably have to wait a lil longer. hey, any excuse to get away from finding a job...hahahahhaa yeah you know it!!

anyways, you know what guys, something awful has happened here. omg!! im still in shock over this. you see,  i was trying out the new washing machine and i didn't know it used warm/hot water for my cotton clothes(and im not certain of the settings). and i'd just bought the Big Bang tshirt  last week and wanted to have it washed before wearing it.

anyways, after the machine had done its job, i pulled out all the clothes and i saw this bits and pieces of greyish material (bit sticky and plastic-y) stucked at the side of washing machine door. not realizing what it was, i cleaned it all out and started to hang out the clothes. and then a realization dawned upon me. hey! hold up...where's my black tshirt with Big Bang Alive Tour logo? i remembered clearly that the logo was greyish color. AARRGGGHHH.....SO  it was that bits and pieces of material which i found and threw away! the tshirt is useless to me now!! my wasted money!!

im weeping inside!!! if only you knew how painful this is to me! a brand new tshirt!! that its that bloody washing machine's fault!!(ok ok deep down i know its partially my fault too but...) GRRRRRRRRrrrrr!! now i have to go and order from online coz that piece i had was the last piece in the shop(i went all around hunting)!! and its  hard to find tshirts like this one, its like trying to find a needle in a haystack! goddamnit!!!

on top of that, i thought the new package that we took for our cable tv subscription had Korean channels(by default. coz when the cable guy came to set up for us, i turned to the Korean channel and lo and behold, there it was. i was chuffed. however, my happiness was shortlived. bugger again!! i wanted to watch kbs the next day and so i switched to that channel and eh...there was a pop up that said i had to purchase the package in order to watch. holy cow. SIGH 

i asked my husband how come its like that when i could watch it the previous day. he had no answer to that but he said if i wanted Korean channels, he would have to pay for it. told me to just watch it online, whatever i wanted to see. TRIPLE SIGH  i wonder if this is a bad sign for me and Koreans. nowadays, everywhere i am, i can hear them chatting away. all these years i never really took much notice until i fell in love with Big Bang, and suddenly everywhere is Korean. from fashion to music to accessories. and by the way, once upon a time, i used to own a Korean make car by Hyundai (had it for about 6-7 years).

hey just so you know how BIG a fan i am of Big Bang's, let me share with you a secret. ummm..well since im telling the "world"(in my blog) its no longer a secret anymore. i actually sent those guys cards and friendship bands(amongst other things hahahaa...wont tell you) and on top of that, i even wrote a thank you card to the president of YG. that's how a big fan i am of BBs!! everyday i pray that i'll hear something from anyone of them but till today, nada, zilch, zero! should i give up hope? or just hold on? i don't know, jin-jja.

ok guys, thanks for stopping by. sorry for the long delay in my blog. you know I've been super busy rite and i did warn you before. just wait for my next blog. and until then..fighting!! (one of Big Bang's famous last words).

ttfn


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p/s Gdragon, mr team leader of Big Bang will be performing his first solo concert in Singapore. i reckon its after middle of the year since his first concert in seoul only happened like on the 30 and 31 march. i read it was a rocking good show. so for all you BB fans or fans of GD, get your Cray-on!!! or should i say Michi Go!!!